Wednesday, August 14, 2013
mom: we need to talk.It's been 18 days and I just can't bring myself to even comprehend that I will never be able to give you any more kisses or touch you soft beautiful face.I talk to you everyday and I pray for you everyday,I know you would say you don't have to pray for me,and your probably right but I pray that you got your wings and that the lord is letting you have a easy going life,compared to what your life was like here on earth. I think you left us way to soon.But God wanted you for some reason,and maybe it was because of your cancer,maybe he didn't want you to suffer,and with that in mind,I wouldn't want you to suffer either,it would have killed me to see that happen to you.But never the less I'm still having a hard time,I can't even think about you being gone.I keep seeing you in my mind,on that Saturday you sitting in your wheel chair waiting for the emt to get there to take you to the hospital,I relly believed you were going to come home.How I wish we could go back about 10 years and fix everything,make some better decisions,for your health care.I wish you never got cancer,I hate that word and in my book it's the most discusting word I ever heard.I'm angry with your doctors and angry that you got sick,because someone couldn't deal with a little heat in stead you had to accept living in a very cold enviroment. I try to look for some kind of reason why this had to happen but I'm just not finding it. I guess I'll just have to talk to you by myself until some day this will maybe all make scence.For now and always I will always always love you and will never let go. Love you so so much and I will see you again. your loving daughter Katrina
